footprints on the beach

I Follow Footprints: On Feeling Lost, and Finding Yourself Anyway

I’ve always liked footprints.
The ones left behind when no one’s paying attention.
When no one turns around to check if they’re still visible.

Those are the ones I cherish most.
Because they’re real.
Because they don’t try to be.

Unapologetic.
Unaware.
Unintentional.

Etched deep into the dirt, the sand, the snow —
carved in from someone’s full weight.

The ones that drag,
those that stagger,
the ones shaped by a limp or a stumble —
they’re the ones I notice.

There’s something quiet and noble in the way a broken step still keeps going.
You can tell the walk was hard.
You can tell the world wasn’t gentle.
You can tell someone was carrying something heavy —
something no one else could see.

And still… they moved.

I follow footprints like those.
Even when I lose the people who made them.
Even when the trail fades
and the journey stops making sense.

Which, if I’m being honest —
is most of the time.

Sometimes, the steps I admire belong to people who never looked back.
Sometimes, they’re too light — they barely touch the surface.
Other times, they’re too heavy —
like they tried to crush the ground beneath them on purpose.

But the ones that drag?
The ones that falter, recover, and keep going?
Those feel familiar.
Because most dragged were mine.

Throughout my life, I have spent a lot of time —
trying to keep up, trying to not get lost,
trying to belong.

But lately, I’ve realized something important.

I was never really lost.
Just lonely.
And there’s a difference.

Loneliness makes us think we’re missing something or someone.
But sometimes, all we’re missing
is the reminder that our own steps count too.

That even when no one’s watching,
when no one texts back,
when you’re walking alone in the cold —
you’re still moving.
You’re still leaving something behind.

And that’s not nothing.
That’s resilience.
That’s healing.

So if you’re reading this while feeling behind, or abandoned, or invisible —
know this:

You are still here.
You are still making footprints.
And that’s enough.

Keep walking.

A small note on mental wellness:

Feeling disconnected or unsupported doesn’t make you weak; it only makes you a human. But strength isn’t always loud or obvious.
Sometimes, it looks like brushing your teeth when your brain is foggy.
Sometimes, it’s stepping outside your home just to experience the sunshine touching, caressing your face.
And sometimes, it’s just deciding to stay in motion, even if you don’t know exactly where you’re going, you choose to keep going.

One step at a time.


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